At work I waited for the call I feared would come. He's now married to a man and she says they get on for the sake of their children. The veterinarian ruled out a bladder infection. Four years together, and little of that time with him sober. Guilt-trip or manipulate you? She withdraws into her own world and begins building an elaborate house out of playing cards.
I had a lot of luggage on the sidewalk, so I was glad to get a big Checker cab to stop for me.
On a crisp September morning I was running late for class, and my father was preparing to leave for a trip east for his final round of interviews to become a federal judge. You just feel like your whole life is wasted and there's no closure. I didn't know what to do so we lived a lie for two years. He would be seventy-two today. What I learned from that meeting was to turn my future self-abuse inward, where no one would see it. How Can I Help? He was buried next to my mother, with full military honors.
But now, with my baby sleeping in the other room and him lying in bed in a stupor, my question to myself is: When I was very young, my parents would ignore my siblings and me at family get-togethers as they drank and laughed and told jokes. Abusers may tell their partners that all LGBT relationships are like this, especially if the survivor is new to the LGBT community and has not had experience with same-sex relationships. He was going to call down Jesus to kill us both, he said. But I always stop myself because I remember how it was when she died, how devastated everyone who knew her was, and I think maybe it should have been me: Some gay men believe that being married can rid them of their homosexuality. Despite all of this, my other siblings still believe his brief drug use caused his madness.